The Journey I Didn’t Choose

The journey changed so quickly, it happened in the blink of an eye.
One moment I was playing football, the next I was told I might die.

I didn’t ignore the warning signs,  I didn’t miss what was there.
I just didn’t understand enough, how I wish I’d taken more care.

But now it’s here, and I’m facing it, and at times I feel alone.
This journey is a scary one, a path that will take me from my home.

My family is amazing, they stand by me side by side.
Walking this road together, they’ve joined me for the ride.

My beautiful children are constantly in my thoughts.
Knowing I may miss their milestones is what truly haunts.

But whether I feel alone or with my family by my side,
I’ll walk this journey with a smile and cherish the uncertain ride.

That’s not to say I’m fearless, I am scared of what’s to come.
Not for me, but for my loved ones, when my journey here is done.

For when I’m gone, they’ll carry the sorrow and sadness in their heart. 
And the thought of leaving them behind is what is tearing me apart.

I don’t know when the end will come, or when it’ll be my time.
But I’ll embrace each precious day as life’s most sacred gift to climb.

For I will decide how it ends, not the cancer deep is side, I will decide how this ends, and I will do it with my family by my side!